A couple of difficult days ahead. Meeting Geri on 5th June to collect Dad's ashes - don't know how I'm going to be. Then memorial ceremony and scattering of ashes on 11th. Am hoping that my birthday party on 12th will be good but know I'll still be thinking of Dad (as I will on any special occasion when I would make a point of calling him). Still miss him so much it can hurt but am getting there.